Harriotte... and I

I AM SO JEALOUS!
i am jealous, envious, hating, and wanting everything... WHY CAN'T I JUST APPRECIATE WHAT I HAVE AND BE HAPPY!?
i think its facebook, it makes me look at what everyone else is doing, and who they are talking to etc and makes me jealous
i am such a horrible person :(

i want to be different. and i want a change.
give me something to look forward to, i need to stop stressing!
and i need some new pictures to look at, and make me feel pretty ha

anyway
i am well into my art atm, i love doing it, i think its the new topic
and i think my drawing skills are really coming on
i get abit embarrassed talking about my art tho, because i feel like i'm showing off... i kinda am in a way

ahhhhh i can't wait for summer :)

i also wish i looked like penelope cruiz (sorry if thats not how you spell her name)
she is so beautiful, especially with her white hair

i want to be spanish i have decided

i have been having really weird, vivid dreams, with loads of people i know in them
i dnt remember what they were like
actually
one i had last night was well weird; i dreamt i was asleep but awake, sort of paralised and there were these two south african men groping me (not at the same time) and one was old and one was young and it was really weird coz i couldn't do anything, but i wasn't really objecting
oh and we were in the scabby pub; the bell i think :/
odd...

sometimes i think i write too much personal stuff in this :S
oh well

also Q radio is the best, play abit of everything

anyway bye x