Computer Mayhem

Grrr the computers in my house are just a joke. REALLY pissing me off. And my mother. Fuck sake. We have two computers in this house, and two laptops. I get blamed for the old computer being too slow, which has a broken disk thing aswell. The one in my parents room i can use, although i can't buy anything or download anything or save anything becuase it will use up the hardrive or everything is blocked. Mums laptop is totally forbidden to use: "ITS MINE, I DON'T WANT ANY OF YOU USING IT. I WANT IT TO LAST FOREVER. IT ALREADY HAS A A SCRATCH ON IT" (My Mum doesn't talk only shouts). "Where?" "ON THE OUTSIDE!"
WTF?
What the point in having something if you don't ever use it? and forever? seriously? like technology has reached its peak and will never progress. She is so nutty sometimes.

I have cooled down abit but i am still angry with these shit computers. I want to do two simple tasks. 1. To Upload some pictures and print them out 2. To put some CD's on to my ipod. I can't do either of these tasks easily though because; to upload pictures i have to do them on the old computer because thats where the stuff for my phone has been uploaded, however to print them out i have to save them onto a memory stick as the other computer is attatched to the printer. And to put a CD on to my ipod i need to put it on to itunes and then save it into my ipod, but i can't do that because the disk thing doesn't work on the old computer and then new one won't download itunes. So the only solution is to use a laptop, but that is a certain NO, as you can see from the conversation above, so what is one to do?


Anyway, had a pretty mediocre day. Still in pyjamas unwashed... sexy lol. But i don't care havn't had a lazy day in absolutely ages, well actually thats a lie had on on wednesday but it feels like ages and i need to sort stuff out.

Spoke to Sam yesterday, havn't been missing him as much as i thought, perhaps its because he is only been away for i few days. Actually talking about him makes me miss him, i lied i have been missing him. Although he did piss me off abit yesterday as he said he spoke to Becky about some stuff and now he is glad he got it off his chest. I have nothing against Becky and i don't worry about anything going on between them (unlike alot of girls who would if they're boyfriend was away on holiday with a girl much prettier then them) as i trust him, and i like her, and i know they have been friends forever. Just pissed me off in the fact that if he's not going tell me what was worrying/bothering him why mention it? and why couldn't he discuss it with me? I suppose he doesn't have to tell me everything just as i don't tell him everything but it still annoyed me.

Moving on, i always think about topics or things i could bring up on my blog but i almost always forget. Hmmm anyway i'm going to get back to my busy schedule of lazing and lounging around.

i don't know what to write

i am almost constantly confused, i have no idea why. i have also been getting really down recently for no real reason.
i hate being out of routine with my blog because i always find it really hard to get back into it. i have decided to start it up again properly, i have been inspired by alice's. also it is a nice way for me to look back on and see what i have done, and for people who are away (example: lauren, sam, molly and kitty) to see what i have been up to.
i really can't be bothered to inform you of whats been going on since i was grounded; basically got myself a job: been earning some money, spent some quality time with sam and now hes gone away.
i have already started to miss him which is a little pathetic, i don't normally miss him after two days but i think its because today has been shite and i know i'm not gona see him for a while.
stapled my finger at work today :( bare hurt and now i am finding it hard to type.
mother is on a constant bitch, shutup about phone bills.
i think i'm gonna get another piercing, and after reading i'm gonna get my full fringe cut back as i am bored of my hair and i want a small but defining change. as for it being after reading is because a greesy in the way fringe is not a good look.
i don't know what to do with myself, now summer is here i don't even want to do anything i planned and the shite weather is depressing.
i am home sick... sick of home.
sister is an annoying little bratt sometimes.
wasp factory is an amazing book.
just stating things now, definitely lost the knack of blogging... everytime i go to write i forget what i wanted to say. i don't even know why i want to do this, it lets everyone know what i think and i hate that. i think i like to be 'vague'. maybe there is a way of letting some of my thoughts out with out leaving me vulnerable or predictable? i hate thinking people can work me out. but i do need this outlet otherwise i explode.
recently i have gotten incredibly soppy its almost a joke, it really is sam who has created this weird mutant of a former harriotte hodson. the weird thing is i think i almost like it sometimes. its like lauren said 'your emotions have turned to camp' meaning i had boy emotions before, and now they are on the turn. what am i? lol she is a weirdo.
i couldn't be friends with people with out a little depth.
oh chosen a loosely based theme for my portfolio sketchbook: Love and connections.

Grounded

yep i am. due to too much bunking and not enough covering.

got myself a job tho, and i am looking forward to starting it tomorrow.

being grounded will give me a chance to start work on my portfolio tho, so thats one positive thing. but it is the first day of the grounding and i feel like i am suffocating already.

i badly want kitten, so badly, and i will either call it animal or alan, like the weird cat who talks to stoners. parents forbid pets tho

need to start saving for a gap year, reading, driving and new york.

i can't wait to start my shopping addiction again, the first thing i am going to buy is some new underwear. i love buying new underwear.

head is feeling bit jumbled up at the moment, but this weekend is going to be all about me, a time for reflection.

uni searching is longgggggg.

i havn't done this in so long i don't know what to write.

confused.com

perhaps i am entering a depressed period of time. at least i will have time to deal with it on my own.

bye x