swine flu!

should i be scared? i think i am a little, but there is no point in worrying about it until it actually happens. i think it is probably just the media blowing it out of proportion just like they did with bird flu, sars, and aids in the 90's.
i am so frowny today, i dunno whats wrong but i can't stop.
i am also so tired alllllllll the time, even tho i had 11 hours sleep last night.
currently off food too :S never have been before and this is so weird i just feel sick. perhaps i am sick?
missing sam quite alot actually, although i wouldn't admit it, especially not to him... this long distance relationship is proving to be rather tough. i don't know whats going to happen when he goes to falmouth, to be honest i think i am getting abit ahead of myself, maybe we won't even last that long, its quite a way off. whatever happens i hope we'd still be friends, i hate to think we'd end on bad terms.
i suck big time when it comes to revision time tables, made it on monday and havn't stuck to it at all :(
i have also put on weight :( which sucks, i hate it because i can instantly tell that i have because i get a fatter face. i also hate it because i feel disgusting and ugly. i can't understand how people can get obese, or if they do how they can't just feel really really crap. if i feel this shit and uncomfortable from putting a couple of pounds on how must fat people feel when they put on a stone?
maybe my weight gain is the reason for my lack of interest in food?
i can't wait for summer, i just desperately want to catch up and get back on track, and even get ahead with all the books i want to read, art i want to see, and music i want to play.
jheezzzzz my blog is just turning into a to-do list.
i am so boring.
good day.
bye x.

p.s. i have found the new , lol its .

confused

its hard, i am sorry i havn't blogged for so long, altho i am pretty sure no-one reads this, or remotely gives a shit

i havn't been on an isolation period like my last blog entry said, i couldn't do it

altho i do still need more time to myself, but i havn't even got time for anything atm and at the top of my list it is school work and revision

after that it is my friends

then the boyfriend

- get back in touch with people i have been seriously neglecting i.e. molly, lily, people i havn't seen or made time for in ages

- start playing my instruments again

- read more

- make time for more cultural things, like visit more art galleries and museums

- find a job

- paint and decorate my room

- loose weight

- discover new music

- make more music/get the band together

- paint for fun, not because school tell me too

- read a news paper

- try different food

- go to the pub with the politics crowd on a regular basis

- get some work experience in an art gallery and a charity shop and/or an old peoples home

- get a new hobbie

- start swimming regularly again

- go jogging regularly again

- do more new, exciting, spontaneous things

as you can see i am all over the place at the moment, i feel confused, and i don't know what to prioritise first anymore, so i am going with school work... i really don't want to loose grip on those dreams, and then i think it is my good pal molly, i miss her lots, and i don't think she even knows it :(

my self esteem is pretty low too atm believe it, i want a break or a holiday, to feel care free

anyway i am feeling pretty sorry for myself today, so that is all i think

and dw i will be blogging regularly again x

isolation

after this holiday is over, i am having some me time, to reflect, work, get inspired, improve, and practise.
i am going into isolation (exceptions for school) and i don't know how long for, but it is well over due.

its official

me and sam that is, we are now classified as boyfriend and girlfriend. i think?
its still not facebook official tho, apparently according to lauren that takes time.
molly seems to be pissed off by this tho, i don't really know why, i think its because she sees her self as being the last single one, and that lauren and charlotte have convinced me to have a boyfriend. it wasn't like that, i decided, still not sure if it will work, but i am willing to give it a go.

had a reallly good night last night, hadn't been out in a while with just charlotte, lauren and alice. it was good. met up with george and lp and the crowd and did what we always do, get royally smashed. i really have to stop eating meat when i get drunk, its so bad, i am possibly the worst veggie ever.

i had a nice night the other night too, i went to sams, had dinner with his family and stayed over. such a lazy day i think i spent a good 18 hours in his bed, its so comfy lol.

i had more to say but i can't remember.
ohhhh i think i have glandular fever :S i have to go for a blood test today at the hospital, so i hope its not, but yesterday my glands were like tennis balls, not so bad today, i think i might be getting better. i convince myself if i drink plenty of orange juice i will get better.

bye x

p.s. also don't you just hate it when you insult someone by text, or email etc and they say "if your going to insult me, at least get the spelling right"? grrrr well i do
also i think i get abit too comer (,) happy lol, i use them all the time, i'm not even sure if i know how to use them any more. good bye.

jesus has risen

today is easter, and my tongue hurts and my sides feel like they might split from the amount of food i have eaten... one day i am going to morph into a house
my hair is very frizzy right now, and i feel exceptionally fat so its alright that i'm not seeing sam tonight... probably a good thing, i really dont even want to be touched right now, altho i smell really good and my legs are really smooth. oh well i shall see him tomorrow and hopefully this food might have been digested lol
feeling very open today, like i'd discuss anything with anyone... good thing or bad?
i like my aunty... sometimes, i have a feeling she doesn't like me sometimes. i seem to upset her in ways which i don't even realise, and it isn't even directed at her.
i am on good terms with my mum, i love her... even if she does talk alot of shit :)
my baby cousins are jokes... aaron is like dooie from malcolm in the middle and isaac is the best entertainer ever lol
my family are sooo weird, arguing about tights at the bus stop lol, but i love them so much. i have often said we should have our own tv show, i am serious i am sure it would be well entertaining haha much better than the osborns


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Harriotte Hodson lol awhh, we should sleep together more often ;)tho, if we did, we'd practically be living together lolhaha i don't mind, i quite like being called harry, and its an exclusive thing... so welcome to the hodson household :) love you x
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Liam Burton at 21:32 on 12 April
"lol awhh, we should sleep together more often" ryan nd gough say u should film it

Liam Burton at 21:32 on 12 April
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Harriotte Hodson at 21:35 on 12 April
stop stalking our lesbian love affair jheezzz get a life... bunch of perverts ;)

Lauren Ellis at 21:36 on 12 April
hahat hey wish

haha ^ facebook never fails to amuse me, neither do boys lol
i need fruit, my tongue hurts with ulcers
laterrrrz blog x

p.s. its so weird when you read something, then straight after someone says that exact same thing on the telly

i feel like a pig shat in my head

ahhh i am severely hungover.
had a really good night tho, got in :)
had my first ever jagermeister bomb... soooo good, and gets you so fucked
and my second argument with sam, i don't even know what it was about, all i know is that we were both smashed, and he was being a prick and getting so angry and pissed off over nothing
other than that tho i had a swell time lol
lauren is like my best friend, i love her so much

meat never tasted so good... rubber bugers from the buger king lool
lauren: "harriotte i dare you to steal that umbrella"
harriotte: *so smashed* "yeah alright, why not" *takes the umbrella*
lady: "excuse me can i have my umbrella please?"
harriotte: "oh yeah, sorry here you go, just getting it for you"
LOL and lauren is there just pissing her pants.
hmmm what else happened...
oh me and lauren got seriously perved on haha "mmm your gorgous, i could wake up to you every morning"... "shame you won't be then"
they were scary, and agressive :S
met some funny boys at the bus stop, who let us draw on their faces haha
also on the bus, met the fittest boy from beckenham junction lol... altho he was sticking naked pictures of girls with phone numbers to call all over the bus
and on the way home met 'danny' another weirdo... and he has my number :S and knows where i live... what could i do? he was scary
on the plus side, i got told i was seriously good looking and that i looked 20? is that a good thing?

well thats enough for now, oh for the record me and sam are cool, although it did piss me off, i didn't even know what i'd done
...i wish we'd taken more pictures
but here are the ones we did :)

bye x

i.d.

????
i have none thats what :s
apparently this bar tonight is easy to get into, i bloody hope so, its so embarrassing getting turned away
i am also unsure on this dress, is it flattering? or is it frumpy?
i have only worn it once and that was at new year... dressed as a prostitute :S


i had a nice day yesterday, just jammed with sam most of it :)
the more i see him, the more i like him, but that makes it harder because he lives so far away

i absolutely love withnail and I one of my favourite films... so funny, and i wish i could marry withnail

can't wait for my hair to grow, so i can work the middle parting, sick of this growing out stage
anyway i'm off, i'll post pictures tomorrow :) x

dirrrrrrty

my music taste is really walking down an odd path recently

lady ga ga

christina aguliera

lily allen

that dude who sings that song day and night? haha

kanye west

anything catchy and dancey i am liking haha

i am so bored, something exciting happen please!

i am looking forward to tomorrow night, girlie night outttt please

i wish there was more time

more days like this please

FUCK YOU BLOG

YOU WILL NOT KNOW WHAT HAPPENED IN THE LAST 5 DAYS OF MY LIFE

because you just deleted my thing grrrrr

heyyyy its been a while...

loooool i found that blog entry that i was pissed off with coz i thought the computer deleted it:

sorry i havn't blogged in a while

i've been busy

here has been my week:

friday; finished school early, me and lauren went to pick up off brennan, had a good old catch up... i love that boy. went to charlottes got high then watch pineapple express with alice, kitty, lauren, charlotte, molly and ate fish finger sandwiches lol... that is my idea of heaven :)

saturday; i went to dan m's and dan g's band (blank verse's) gig, with sam, lauren, fred, molly, charlotte and ed. but we met loads of people we knew there including lucy, amy, harriet and flo who were absolutely fucked! but then again so was i, i drank so much and managed to spend all my money for the week :( so now i am sat here with no money till sunday :(:(:( but anyway me, lauren, fred, sam and molly went back to my house coz i had a free house and it was so jokes. the man on the train was so funny calling sam 'little spicey fajita' and 'taco kid' and molly 'fish lady' because sam said molly had webbed toes haha. so we went back to mine bunned a little drank coffee from the hot tap which scolded my knee lol and ate under cooked pizza that got stuck on the fence, and thrown in my eye haha

sunday: we all woke up at mine, i felt abit sorry for molly coz she was abit of a gooseberry, and so she decided to leave at 9 :( but me, sam, fred and lauren had some fat breakfast. then fred and lauren went home, then i walked sam to the bus stop and came home and went to bed

monday: saw sam again, he got a lift from matt, so i went to meet him and we went back to mine. i made him eat my mums nasty soup and help me with the invoicing lol. then we met lauren, charlotte and ashleigh for coffee, ashleigh is the funniest girl i know, it makes me jealous coz i think i'm quite funny and then i'm around her and just like oh man i wish i was as funny as her. after the coffee we went to freds and adam was there... what a weirdo, i do love him tho. and so was ed... we jammed at freds and watched lee evens live, quite funny. then we went for a walk and then everyone went home.

tuesday: i finally finished the kiterunner... one of the best books i have ever read, so heart touching (still didn't cry tho, i actually think i should go to the doctors and get it sorted out) then

i went to see molly, before she went to wales. i have so much love for that girl

right now i can talk about crap:

i have been having some well weird dreams, cant be bothered to write it tho

sorry

god if only i kept up to date with you blog, i could write in abit more detail about how i feel and

not just what i've been up to lol sorry

i will try, but you know its the easter holidays

i am pissed off

can't state why, i am being pathetic lol

and feeling a little emotional... which isn't like me

i don't have emotions apparently and i hate the world and the world hates me

yes i am a little emo

bye x

hey hey mr blue

today has been a crappy-ish day
not bad, just boring and school is annoying
cbbc has really gone downhill, definitely not what it was
altho it does still show the classics like mona the vampire slayer and Arthur... altho he has a new voice! can't just do that
blossom is soooo pretty :)
although i always say spring is a little sickly... i'm not too ill yet

not friends with my mum at the moment
she is ok, and i love her, but i don't think i will ever get on with her, we have moments but they are rare. and i know she does lots for me and i appreciate that but she just annoys me too much
and she always takes the piss out of me every chance she gets, just to make my other sisters laugh
i mean usually i laugh too, but it is really starting to take its tole, and sometimes she is spiteful and can't take it when i give it back
i don't like her... at least for the moment anyway
she is so stressy, only shouts at me, and i am always in trouble for something
i suppose you can't choose your family
i feel sorry for my dad, he puts up with quite alot of crap sometimes
altho he is a cranky fool sometimes, but i get on with him alot more, we have so much in common
i only found out this morning when i found a note on the table from my dad saying: "kim here is the money and tickets for simply red, take sharron or vicki or someone, have fun, and i still love you x" so sweet
i think they have made up now tho :)
coz when i asked my mum who she was going with she said dad :)
which is also good for me, coz it means they are still going away at the weekend... PARTYYYYYY :D
looking forward to tomorrow and onward
bye blog x

shake your body shake shake your body

some photos from today...

my face has gotten fatter... i hate that, not having it

heart shaped blossom, and portable guitars ;)

i have had such a nice day, spring is well and truely on its way
i love the weather
i went to the ucas thing and it was sooooo busy, i hated it
i was in such a bad mood, there were so many fools around, but i picked up some perpectus' and i am really looking forward to uni, i'm thinking about applying for edinburgh, brighton, loughbourgh, and i dunno what else
then after that we got some lucnch and spent the day in st james' park
we were gonna go and protest but we were just so content sitting under a blossom tree listening to lou reed and making daisy chains :)
ahhhh what great friends i have haha that was abit sickly... but its true :)
lauren is pregnant ;) haha a hypocondriach (i can't spell, and can't be bothered to check) and turning slowly into her mum lol.. i think we pick on her abit too much sometimes lol

i miss primary school days with kiss chase, high, low, chickalow, and sallys grandma peeling potatoes (jamaican accent)

this is enough, i have that damn essay to re-write ¬_¬
bye xx