i don't know what to write

i am almost constantly confused, i have no idea why. i have also been getting really down recently for no real reason.
i hate being out of routine with my blog because i always find it really hard to get back into it. i have decided to start it up again properly, i have been inspired by alice's. also it is a nice way for me to look back on and see what i have done, and for people who are away (example: lauren, sam, molly and kitty) to see what i have been up to.
i really can't be bothered to inform you of whats been going on since i was grounded; basically got myself a job: been earning some money, spent some quality time with sam and now hes gone away.
i have already started to miss him which is a little pathetic, i don't normally miss him after two days but i think its because today has been shite and i know i'm not gona see him for a while.
stapled my finger at work today :( bare hurt and now i am finding it hard to type.
mother is on a constant bitch, shutup about phone bills.
i think i'm gonna get another piercing, and after reading i'm gonna get my full fringe cut back as i am bored of my hair and i want a small but defining change. as for it being after reading is because a greesy in the way fringe is not a good look.
i don't know what to do with myself, now summer is here i don't even want to do anything i planned and the shite weather is depressing.
i am home sick... sick of home.
sister is an annoying little bratt sometimes.
wasp factory is an amazing book.
just stating things now, definitely lost the knack of blogging... everytime i go to write i forget what i wanted to say. i don't even know why i want to do this, it lets everyone know what i think and i hate that. i think i like to be 'vague'. maybe there is a way of letting some of my thoughts out with out leaving me vulnerable or predictable? i hate thinking people can work me out. but i do need this outlet otherwise i explode.
recently i have gotten incredibly soppy its almost a joke, it really is sam who has created this weird mutant of a former harriotte hodson. the weird thing is i think i almost like it sometimes. its like lauren said 'your emotions have turned to camp' meaning i had boy emotions before, and now they are on the turn. what am i? lol she is a weirdo.
i couldn't be friends with people with out a little depth.
oh chosen a loosely based theme for my portfolio sketchbook: Love and connections.