confused

its hard, i am sorry i havn't blogged for so long, altho i am pretty sure no-one reads this, or remotely gives a shit

i havn't been on an isolation period like my last blog entry said, i couldn't do it

altho i do still need more time to myself, but i havn't even got time for anything atm and at the top of my list it is school work and revision

after that it is my friends

then the boyfriend

- get back in touch with people i have been seriously neglecting i.e. molly, lily, people i havn't seen or made time for in ages

- start playing my instruments again

- read more

- make time for more cultural things, like visit more art galleries and museums

- find a job

- paint and decorate my room

- loose weight

- discover new music

- make more music/get the band together

- paint for fun, not because school tell me too

- read a news paper

- try different food

- go to the pub with the politics crowd on a regular basis

- get some work experience in an art gallery and a charity shop and/or an old peoples home

- get a new hobbie

- start swimming regularly again

- go jogging regularly again

- do more new, exciting, spontaneous things

as you can see i am all over the place at the moment, i feel confused, and i don't know what to prioritise first anymore, so i am going with school work... i really don't want to loose grip on those dreams, and then i think it is my good pal molly, i miss her lots, and i don't think she even knows it :(

my self esteem is pretty low too atm believe it, i want a break or a holiday, to feel care free

anyway i am feeling pretty sorry for myself today, so that is all i think

and dw i will be blogging regularly again x