is there something worth living for?

cigarrettes and alcohol lol

since when did my friends become so obsessed with the way they look? and so judgemental?
don't get me wrong i care about the way i look, i like to look good, but they are constantly are talking about how to be cool, or what people are wearing, if ur trying to look like someone else then surely you're not cool? hmm maybe i have just got it wrong
but that lookbook sounds like such a waste, and for pretentious twats
tbh i don't care
and i got asked why i wasn't saying anything
because it is boring
certain people got on my nerves today
i don't mind saying this, because it is human nature, i'm aloud to get annoyed with people, doesn't mean i like them any less
tbh i think this frustration with my friends comes from my own judging self, i am very judgemental sometimes, its something i'd like to change, you shouldn't judge people on the way they look, i even done it to my sister in the park the other day (i didn't know it was her) but to be honest i am pretty sure it was more jealousy

anyway i am finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel
two paintings down one to go :)
(i will post pictures tomorrow, when i get on the heap of junk out with all the softwear on it)
but my sketch book is very very empty/shit

i am in a weird mood
sometimes i just like to b pissed off with people for the sake of it, i know its bad and unfair on people but i can't help it

hahaha
art was so jokes today, i am so entertaining haha kerri said she could watch me all day
and simone took the piss out of me for being deaf
but i don't care she is simone the pumba ;).... see what i did there haha

anyway i can't wait for the weekend, even if it will be mostly filled up with revision, and abit of sam inbetween lol
bye x