Harriotte... and I

i think i might be me again. i don't want to talk any more. it really doesn't help any situation. i tried it and it fails, it only makes things worse. i want to be closed off. i don't like it when people know too much about me, people who aren't part of my elite. it lets them have a hold over me. fuck off its none of your bussiness. don't bring it up unless i do, or expect to be told to fuck off. it allows people to think we're friends. when really i know you don't actually give a fuck, theres always some other motive. i find it hard to trust people, but there are few genuine people that i do believe really care, and i love you for that. and for that i don't need anyone else, only for excitement. i sometimes worry i might actually be mad, i wonder if this is real. we're not like other people, i can tell.

-don't judge. just respect. i'm random.